Gish is a gay.

So today in the mail tribune….

Researchers have confirmed that a redwood named Hyperion in a remote Northern California forest is the world’s tallest tree.

Steve Sillett, a forestry professor at Humboldt State University, recently climbed Hyperion and measured it at 379.1 feet, 1 foot taller than previously thought.

Researchers had to wait until the end of the endangered marbled murrelet’s nesting season to measure Hyperion and confirm its status.

If it weren’t for damage caused by woodpeckers at its top, Hyperion could have reached 380 feet, researchers said.

It COULD have been .9 feet taller if it wern’t for those fucking woodpeckers. I bet those researchers are so heated at those birds. I would be. But i dont really care, biggest tree isn’t a record i’m trying to break, i wouldn’t even know where to start, i would take a ruler and measure up, and then scratch i mark and continue going up until i reaced about 10 feet and i would get scared and come back down. do you know how far up 380 feet is ? how do they climb that high and not be scared as shit about the tree j ust collapsing, remember these trees are really fucking old. really old.

So some good foriegn music, the best i’ve heard since Dungen, a german band i believe, and  Amadou and Mariam… they are called babasonicos. Sounds portugeus. Its hot stuff, check it out. Gish hated them , but he’s racists. fucking asshole.

a couple of my co-workers were talking about calling this other guy we work with, and i’m like “i’ll call him” and so i picked up the phone and dialed his number.

hey chad, it’s eric from work … oh hey eric…. hey chad, i just decided that i wanted to box you… oh yeah ?… yeah, no gloves if thats alright… yeah sure, are you working ?? …. yeah i’m at work… what time you get off ? you want me to meet you there or somewhere else ?? … you can just meet me here right now…. ok then….. so i’ll see you in a little bit, just bring yourself, you dont need to bring any gloves or anything cause it’s bare fists…. ok bye……

and so i hung up, and i was assuming that he knew i was fucking with him, why would i ever want to box him, we get along and everything. So my co-workers were laughing really hard for some reason, like they dont hang around people like me ever who are willing to mess with people. and so he doesn’t show up because one of them sent him a text saying i was joking around. I talked to him yesterday and he was getting ready to come to sears and fight because he thought i was holding some type of secret grudge against him, he thought i was secretivly a fighter. dont you love when you get to start over with a new image. you can be whoever you want.

I just baught an external hard drive. i was down to less than a GB of space on my 80gb hard drive. and i had tons of new music coming my way, so i finally decided to fork over the money and get the extra room.

Is NIceeeee! I’m in the process of moving half of my music over there. going to take awhile.

love is an arrow

I just spent a good hour writing two pages on what love is, and what an ideal relationship is. It only had to be a paragraph. I suppose i had a lot in my head. I’ve been thinking about it for a long time, it’s a hard concept to grasp. But maybe thats my problem. I’ve come to the conclusion love isn’t or at least shouldn’t be as detailed and complicated as it is. I think it’s quite possible that Love is in fact BOLD. A relationship is a friendship with enthusiasm, and no signs of doubt that the enthusiasm will continue forever. You really shouldn’t have to question yourself, you dont need to ask yourself “am i in love??” it’s going to be clear, and in fact it’s not even going to cross your mind, it’s just going to be there. But how will you know ? I cant especially tell you, There will be signs. Everybody, i’m guessing, has their own signs.

I was just wondering if i were to ask you to sit down and respond to this question “what makes you happy? what brings you joy?” Now are you going to start naming off material possesions?  your car, your t.v, your phone?? or will you think of individual people. my friend ____ or my sister _____….

Someone asked me before what i was passionate about. i couldn’t’ answer, but i tihnk i realize i couldn’t answer because i was trying to think of material things, or activities. I wasn’t thinking of people… here is a short list.

Sam, Jesse, mishky,glimpse, kendra, gish, cody, E, andrew, robin, dave bergin, aaron, ian, logan, savannah, elvis, mom, dad, sister,bret, david patterson, zach harris, trevor marion, elliott smith, anthony flea john and chad, ryan adams, jack white…

Is that ok? can i be passionate about people instead of activity? You know who you are, answer this question for me, you can hide your identity.

So i have to give a speech tomorrow in class, i’m going to wing it, but i fucking hate speeches, which implys that i really fucking hate speech class. but i like sexuality class.

xo

hey, i have a cancer.

so school, not so fun, i’ve seen some pretty ridiculous people too.  I feel like people are undressing me with their eyes. even the teachers. they all undress me.

but about a  month ago, me and sam started talking about a change. we did research and we also have a friend who lives up north, way up north, not like canada, but inbetween here and there. so we’ve been contimplating it for awhile, we got glimpse involved and it was a huge coinsidence because the lowdown board shop just happens to be going big . So after christmas there will be changes. It may seem sudden, but we’ve been planning details and almost got everything set, just waiting for some papers to go through. We just got a phone call this evening and got some good news so.. bla bla bla not important right now. maybe i’ll write about it in a couple months.
So my grandma comes into town tomorrow. she’s probably really excited to see me, she’ll probably make comments on my hair, and she’ll try to cut it for me, but i’ll say “no th ank you shirley, i already have a barber, i call her K.H, she’s still in training , but i like her style”

Ryan gish got really upset because i didn’t write about my day today yet, so I’m sorry ryan, why dont you go get those nudes developed and i’ll put them up here.

xo

strange urges

I have this strange urge to fall asleep in my trunk.

I layed in it earlier today, i had a sleeping bag in there for those nights i have to sleep in my car, and it was really comfortable. and i’m really tired right now, but i’m staying up for awhile so me and glimpse can go ghost hunting. I myself have been up ghost hunting a lot, but never find anything, but glimpse came up with a plan, we have to offend those ghost if we really want to see them, so we’ll be meddy walkin all over those graves. and peeing and spitting. hell yeah.

To who it may concern, i have completed my ryan adams collection, with recent additions: heartbreaker and demolition… and also my whiskeytown collection is completed. I’ll have ipod sex with anybody, i’m not into strictly one partner anymore.

Picture time!!

the few times i get angry, i get ANGRY!

and then i have to come off my high, and i’ll tell you it’s not very attractive….

But when i’m all the way down, it’s sexy as hell

Then i will whistle songs to gish

then a dance sesh.

and a peekaboo sesh

And then i make it a personal goal of mine to fit into places 19 year old men shouldn’t be able to fit…

Get outta my face ryan gish, you wanna talk some jive, i’ll talk some jive. steal my shoes again ryan, i dare you.

and kendra says fuck you eric.

get down from that chair ryan, this floor is slippery, your gone’ fall and break yo arm, git down from there right now, ryan gish, this is the last warning, get down from there or i’m going to get in yo’ face and we’re gone’ talk some jive!!

Just cause i’m listening to it right now…

How DO you keep love alive?? tell us ryan adams. just tell us.

xo

mandarin chinese boys

Ryan Gish stold my shoe. done drove off wit it. then i had to call him and tell him to bring it back . and then he showed me his throwing knife. He’s a gay.

so, i made a mistake. i stayed up till 2:30 and i have to wake up at 9:30. thats not enough sleep for me. i only for for 5 hours though. so i’m not terriblyl upset. although the thought of going back to school turns me off. not excited AT ALL. Not nerous though, just kind of dissapointed that my summer is over and i have to work and go to school at the same time, wont be able to hang out as often. But dont you love the weather this past week. finally some variety, it keeps me on my toes. and now people wont say “arn’t you hot in those pants??” i’ve never been hot in pants. i’ve been cold in shorts though, so i might as well wear pants at all times. I got a bunch of new stuff from goodwill this week.

• two scarves
• two pants
• a shirt
• a headband

… Not really that much, but more than usual. I need to complete my canadian tuxedo. i need a denim shirt, anybody got one i could have? or a texan tie… i cant find one anywhere. give me one. i need it bad!!!

xo

Kendra, you better read this…

So i woke up this morning with one intention.  To somehow prove kendra wrong. cause most the time she’s right, and i’m fucking tired of it… So i thought way back into the beggining of our friendship, about 4 weeks ago, these were her words (word usage and order may not be accurate) ” Eric Loeffler, I bet that you can’t go 24 hours without using The Myspace.” I said ” well if i had shit to do , then i probably could, but i usually dont have anything to do” And so it begins, which would be the beggining of somebodies journal…

I woke up about 8:30. I call jesse, or actually text him, i say ” hey, you still running on time?” he says “yeah, come over now” and do i wake up and take a shower and check my myspace at about 9:00 am.  I head over to jesses house and dance for him when he opens the door, singing a song i made up on the spot about girl pants. I said “hey jesse, today is the first day of fall, do you know what that means…… It means that it’s the first day of Ramadan” …  That last part was made up. but we go over to dutch bros and get me some coffee, and then over to sears/hotskates so that i could get my scheduel and jesse could buy a beanie because he knew it was going to be cold or some bullshit… Next thing we know we’re in coos bay. We grab a 5.99 pizza. it’s identical to the 5 dollar pizza, except it’s 99 cents more because it’s made in the meth capital of the world. We head over to the Goodwill because it’s F’in large and incharge, and of course smells of B.O really bad, like old people just sit in there and sweat all day. WE looked around for a good 30 minutes, all i found was a headband/ear warmers. So we leave and i drive over to the SWOCC campus so i could show jesse the soccer field and it just so happened that the girls had a soccer game right when we got there. I only really care for maybe 3 people there and so i thought i could at least get out and say hi. So i said hi to friend Amy and Udabong and JJ, some other misc people that i could have lived without, not to imply that i hate anybody there that i saw. ok, so enough of that, we stayed for 10 minutes and went to the ocean area, hiked around , got right down to the water and took some cool pictures. WEnt to another beach, and then went back to watch half of the guys soccer game ( trying to make a long story short, we actually did a shit load of things).

I’m getting really tired of writting, so sorry for my lack of creativity and details.

We got home at about 9:00 and baught tickets for jackass 2 playing at 10:30, drove over to jesses house to grab his ID because they are strict there tonight for some reason. Then we met up with friends Mishky, Bshaw,Gish and Jake. Annoying fucks sitting behind us, a bunch of high school kids who clapped and cheered the entire hour before the movie, and then the one kid who did the commentary for everybody who might have missed a part in the movie.  “Holy fuck, he just got bit by a snake”… thank you friend for being curtious for all the blind people watching the movie… ” that was the most intense fucking shit i’ve ever seen” he would literally just yell these things when everybody was quiet. People were obviously distressed and annoyed with him, but for some reason nobody did anything, If i had 40 more pounds on me i would have walked over there and probably an elbow to his face, break his nose just a little bit, and then Gish would be behind me doing the commentary for the fight ” holy shit, eric just might have killed this kid, or put him in a coma for a few months, depending on how good the doctors are at saving lives, and he just got a lot of blood on his shirt, that was his RHCP shirt too, he loves that shirt, fits him like a fucking glove, and has a pretty girl on it with birds, it was probably pretty expensive to, thanks to the person who purchased that shirt for him”… if i was 3 years younger i would have gone down and told the manager, but i’m at the akward age where tatteling isn’t allowed.

Picture time.

Feel the energy

how can you be sad when i’m so happy?

so the moral of the story. I havn’t been on myspace since 9:0am this morning, and i’m going to go to sleep, and by the time i wake up tomorrow, which will be past 9:00 i will have proved kedra wrong. 24 hours without myspace.

Anybody ever had anal sex???!! If the answer is ‘yes’ then thats fucking weird, i’m  not into that at all.

xo

my diet (this is a little late, forgot to post)

The past 3 weeks, i’ve ate fast food AT LEAST once a day. most the time two times a day, well at least for this week. Taco bell pretty much everyday, probably because i hang out with people who arn’t ashamed to eat TB everyday… Glimpse. those CBR’s. mmmm… and i’ve replaced most my regular liquids with coffee. I dont excersize. I STILL WEIGH THE SAME ! what the fuck is wrong with my body, why am i still healthy?

Today is three month anniversary of our three friends deathday. Lets dedicate some part of our day to them, if not the whole day.

xo

ice cream bar and bottle water

… is whats for breakfast…. breakfast as in my first meal of the day… i just woke up , and i need to leave for work.

I completed my heatmiser cd collection.  Thats all i have right now.

xo

for some reason i’ve been really excited about this sean lennon cd coming out. well i got it last night, and it’s really good. Of course he will never live up to his father, but i’m sure no musicians goal is to surpass john lennon or any of the beatles, you dont set goals to continue to be a good drummer when your arm gets cut off….. oh wait…

… ok, but do you think back in the days of the beatles, there were the hardcore fans who had been following them through the beginning, who knew about them before anybody else did. “hey man, check out this band from liverpool, their called the beatles, but they misspelled beetle because their from europe”… then that guy is watching television and sees them on that damn Ed sullavin show, that guy sells out all the good bands! >:( angry face

incase anbody was wondering, yes , they do have the holloween costumes out at goodwill. and yes, they do have about 100 M&M costumes. but if your willing to be more open minded, i like to call it “steppin into the trail mix” state of mind. they have a california raisen costume. It must be about 10 years old. and the wigs all have warning labels. me and glimpse found it kind of comical “buy at your own risk” … what!? you mean they dont sanatize their shit ? I’m complaining.

We found a creature coffee shirt at goodwill for 99 cents. It was hidden in the childrens section, but nothing is ever hidden in the children section from me, they forget that i can still squeeze into that shit. yep. Before that we went over to the Harry and david to get them free samples, and picked up some sparkeling pear juice. yeah, i drank a carbonated beverage yesterday, i broke my own rules, but thats fine, i kind of forgot my reasoning for it. It wasn’t reallyl that good though. and people thought we were drinking wine coolers when we went out in public… the guy who was super excited that he found a regular playstation gave us the double look. i bet you he was so dissapointed when he realized he needed the cords to play that playstation, and it didn’t just work with just the hardware part.

Gish was angry, he was angry because the other day he was at goodwill with his mother and he had 3 dollars to get rid of. he saw this VHS rewinder and it was 4.99 . so he asked his mom for 2 dollars and he would pay her back, but she said ” no ryan, why should i give you 2 dollars, you havn’t been behaving the past two days!” then ryan responded ” thats bologna mom, i’ve taken a bath everyday this week”. His mom shook her head in dissapointment, ” well thats fine, but you havn’t been brushing your teeth, you’ve just been weting the tooth brush! You threw your controller on the ground yesterday when you lost shaq fu, and then on top of everything you’ve been stealin my victoria secret magazines!” The argument ended there leaving gish in total agreement that he in fact did not deserve that 2 dollars. When he got home he took a bath, brushed his teeth with toothpaste, took his collection of victoria secret magazines with the ‘marisa miller’ pages mysteriously ripped out and put them back in moms room. “Maybe next week”, ryan said to himself, “i’ll behave this week, i’ll be the best son i can be”. Ryan behaved the whole week, only hitting his controller against the ground once in frustration, but his mom was out at grocery outlet, so she didn’t know. They went over to goodwill with ryans 5 dollars, went to the “electronic” section only to find that ryans vhs recorder had been sold, or hidden so that somebody else could come pick it up next week when they get enough money. He hung his head down, as the tears built up he thought to himself, “when will life get easier?”. an answer nobody knew. So he went home and rewound his VHS’s with a flat head screwdriver.

Eric soon began to wonder just what he had spent all this time on, and he looked above and said, ‘wow, i’m pretty fucking lame, but i like what i’m doing now, i’m going to start writing my blog as if it was a book, and i’ll refer to myself in third person”

xo

i’m supposed to be sleeping by now.

I want you to know that i still have an empty picture frame that needs a picture…. see YOU later.

ok, so i just found a video on youtube, it’s jack whtie getting finger surgery, and the dotors are listening to elephant… heres mr ryan adams