a wicked wind will blow, your ribbons from your curls.

I’ve gotta bonner for that new  Shins single. Very well done.

I’ve also gotta bonner for this nickelcreek song. and i think it’s hilarious, and very upfront and bold.It goes a little something like this…
“ I hope you finally find someone
Someone that you trust
And give him everything
I hope you meet someone your height
So you can see eye-to-eye
With someone as small as you

You came out of nowhere, made me smile
Then tore me in two
Saying, “We’re very different people”
So dear, I hope you find somebody more like you”

Holloween huh? I think it’s fucking gay as aids. I dont like that the whole u.s thinks we need to give girls a reason to expose more skin. The gates of hell open, we celebrate satanic rituals and most of all Girls suddenly feel it’s appropriate to prostitute themselves. I dont know if anybody realizes holloween was invented for the big companies to market stupid shit like candy, pumpkins and costumes, and they make millions of bones and we just get another excuse to get drunk.(those of you who drink) I had some stupid girls in my psychology class who complained that the midterm was the day after holloween and she was going to be drinking so she wanted to postpone it. Do you realize how many pumpkins are being wasted too? millions of pumpkins are just being cut up, and probably about 1 percent of the insides are being used for productive matters, such as food. Give those millions of pumpkins to those skinny mf around the world that eat garbage and bugs and stuff. They will be grateful of our pumpkins. they would make some delicious pumpkin stew, or maybe they would follow in our footsteps and carve it into a bat or a ghost, put it outside their huts or whatever for a couple weeks and then throw it away.

I had a little thought today about self-acceptance. Does anybody really ever look at themselves in the mirror for longer then a minute?  I thought about it today, whenever there is a mirror in front of me, i look in it for 10 seconds maybe, make sure nothing is in my teeth, but then if i make eye contact with myself i get weirded out. I’m sure i’m exgaurating a little bit…. does anybody think they are attractive? Do they look at themselves and say ” man, i’m fucking hot as fuck, i’m going get the hottest girlfriend?” ….. Or does our self-acceptance come from what other people are telling us ?  i really dont know what to think of myself. I’ve never really been complimented on my apperance by someone whose judgment i respected. I think i need to start a chain reaction of compliments based strictly on apperance. and i’m going to start being more upfront. If i think youre attractive, i might just say so. what do you think ? 

xo

Irobasam:

iroba S a m: just rub in inbetween her butt cheeks

ELOef2323: i like your thinking sam

i;ve said it before

…and i stand behind my word….

xo

i;ve said it before

…and i stand behind my word….

where’s that girlfriend when your back itches?

…Seems like your back itches alot more when you’re single. Thats a shame.

Today i used the word “pussy” in a text message. Refering to ryan gish. and i feel so dirty. It was funny though.

I got some new Pavement cd’s today. They were the first “obscure” band that i listened to back in middle school. And they slowely pushed snoop dogg and eminem and outkast outta the way. Thank god. Thank god for Pavement. I also got the loft session from ryan adams. Just a set he did for xm radio i think. It’s wonderful. good quality live session. I wish it was acoustic though. Tomorrow, sunday, i get it off. i’m so excited to have a break on the weekand. On the day of the lord. Thank the lord…. again….

The new guy at work was shadowing me today, and we walk over to some guy, and i’m going through my routine “hey sir, are you finding everything alright?” …. he looks over at me , short pause, and he yells ” I HAVN’T STARTED LOOKING YET, AND IF I NEED HELP I’LL ASK …”  I was smiling the whole time. So we walk away and i go over to some other assosiate and i was like “hey, if you come across a guy in a gray shirt dont….. ” and the kid gets distracted and i dont get  a chance to tell him that the guy in the gray shirt and velcro shoes is getting pissed when you ask him for help. So 5 minutes later, i’m at the other end of the isle with the other associate and we here “hello sir, do you need any help??” and this guy starts yelling. it was hilarious. fucking people are strang when you’re a stranger. and i work with a lot of strangers.

xo

booooo

I’m probably going to go take a nap after being up for 3 hours. (1:00)

…added on at (5:00)…. I didn’t take a nap…. but i work in 45 minutes. i work 3 hours and 15 minutes. wow…. just give me the f’in day off.

Swiss miss isn’t what it used to be. or maybe i’m just not good at making it anymore.

Mitch hedberg needs to come back to life for holloween. I need to verify that ducks eat for free at subway with him.

xo

Who wants cunnilingus?

Anybody want cunnilungus, just let me know. I’ve got plenty to go around. But sorry i’m all out of Fellatio, i’ve actually never had any in the first place. (google image search it if you want).

iroba S a m: or get caught on dateline
ELOef2323: that’d be dank. i’de be on tv .
ELOef2323: like that time ryan gish was on the news because he witnessed that robbery. ” yeah, i was in the building behind winco, and i just ran out of my booth because i heard this commotion, then i saw these guys running away with bags of money with money signs on them”
ELOef2323: haha, i’m going to put that in my blog
iroba S a m: haha
iroba S a m: was he really on tv

So i’ve almost completed my sexuality homework. I started yesterday, it’s just some chapter questions for 4 chapters. It’s going to be about 20 fucking pages… I’ve learned a lot though. a lot a lot a lot. we can chat about it anytime. just let me know.

Me and Sam got a plan. It is in the design process. But I actually think we are going to stay dedicated to this idea and i tihnk we may see success. Hopefully. We’ll give you details as we get closer. It’ll be a hit.

xo

I’ve had a chance insane asylum from the falling rain.

I stayed up way too late.

I have to wake up at 8

and that may not seem very early for some of you, but remember that everybodies sleep cycle is different, and my sleep cycle is 12 hours. and it’s fucking stupid!

I recorded some covers tonight. Theres like 5 of the same song back to back. kept messing up at the very end, and then i would shout obsenities into the mic. but by the last take, my voice doesn’t sound very good at all. I shout loud sometimes. It’s a side that most people wont ever see. And probably most of the stuff i record most of you will never hear while i’m alive because it’s really weird listening to yourself while other people are listening… it’s almost equivilant as being naked in front of people, you dont know what the fuck they’re thinking, and you dont know whether or not their opinion on it is truthfull. Maybe if i die, you can sneak onto my computer and locate them.Good luck with that if you ever have to do it.

I’m tired of being sick. It’s really frustrating. and being stressed out this week with school, work and homework doesn’t make anything better.If anybody wants to help with a homework assignment thats due on thursday(tomorrow) then study the history and views of homosexuality starting with jeudo-christianity. Or maybe tell me your views on homosexuality. you can be honest.

xo

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tonight i decided that all my friends are lame. except sam.

oh lordy, touble so hard.

some other cd’s released :

A best of from Moby

9 by Damien Rice

Noise floor by Bright Eyes

Pussy Cats by the Walkmen

Brighter/later by Duncan Sheik (title is a tribute to nick drake)

and you can go listen to ben folds new single here 

So i decided, half awaken, that going to my first class today wasn’t important and turned my alarm off, then when i’m fully awake, i realize that was fucking stupid. But i have spent the last hour clearing out my nose and throat of mucas. It’s terrible. After school i’m going  to go to the library and have a study sesh’ and get ahead in the homework so i’m not so stressed out the rest of the week. I think that sounds like a good idea. I also need ink for my printer, thanks for reminding me. Ok, thats all i’m writing about for now.

xo